Things I love right now

Hello, hello, hello, hellooo,
It's 1993 in my heart.

can't stop listening to:



just bought these bad boys. not my style. totally bad ass girl boots, so I tried to tone them down with a cameo brooch. going to pair them with these next:

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Been munching on this shizz (THANKS TATE!) I think I'm going to make it this weekend at home:

I'm even having a tender phase toward c.lo. taking this pic to aveda tomorrow to get cut 'n' color:
side note: new favorite blog:
http://whatcourtneyworetoday.com/

also in heavy rotation:




annnnnnnd finally, this shit has changed my life!

I AM OBSESSED! It looks like colgate shaving cream or something, and it's only $6 at drug stores. It's a dry shampoo and it totally rules when you're a dirty bitch with greasy hair who has to look big business every day. It's also awesome for when you are actually ontop of your shit and have that dreaded, fluffy, freshly washed-can't do anything with it kinda hair. LOVE LOVE LOVE. It also smells like heaven. Just saying. Quit paying $25 for shitty dry shampoo from sephora, and quit being ghetto (like me up until I discovered this) and stop putting baby powder on your roots. It's bomb. Trust.


Update on my favorite nail polish everrrrrr. Essie made a new color that I thought was comparable, called turquoise and caicos. I am sad to report that though it's a lovely shade. It just doesn't compare to my beloved Greenport. Sad face. TOO GREEN. :(

Kiki D

Kirsten Dunst is my celebrity girl crush. I know she's not the greatest of actresses, or the prettiest of vampires, but I love her and will see any movie she's in and buy any magazine she's on the cover of. Some of my Kiki D favorites include Little Women, Dick, Spiderman(s), Kiki's Delivery Service, Fifteen & Pregnant, All I Wanna Do, Get Over It, Drop Dead Gorgeous, and BRING IT ON!!!














Whose your favorite celebrity girl crush ONTD?

all day I dream about femspiration

LAURA PALMER (Twin Peaks)

"...and then your body would just burst into fire. And the angel's wouldn't help you, cause they've all gone away..."


Yes, I was apart of the Twin Peaks craze. I've watched every episode and seen the movie a chamillionaire times. I wanted to be Laura Palmer. She lived on the edge so hard that she didn't care if it killed her. HOW COOL IS THAT?? She kept a secret journal behind her dresser and would smoke in her room when her parents weren't home and do cocaine in the bathroom of high school and had an older boyfriend that rode a motorcycle and a best friend that was freaked out when she'd talk about burning through space. She was the high school beauty queen that lived a double life by fleeing to Canada to do cocaine and sleep with dudes and dance the night away. Ugh, too cool.


MONA LISA VITO (My Cousin Vinny)

"You fucking shower, I'll get your fucking suit."

I recently re-watched this movie and forgot I much I love this woman. I love all of her clothes, her hankering for chinese food, her pool playing skills, her fake nails, her attitude, her pink camera, and her HAIR!


CLEMENTINE KRUCZYNSKI (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

"I'm telling you right off the bat I'm high maintenance"

Clementine's an impulsive wreck that is a free spirit in the most non-hippy of ways. She's got pretty cool hair, pretty cool clothes, and a pretty cool apartment. She's bold, needy, spontaneous, talks fast, and most importantly, she's intensely in love, just the way I like it. To me, there is no other kind. Complete and utter consumption.


LAYLA (Buffalo 66)

"If you were my son, I would be really proud of you."

I have such a soft spot for martyrs. Allowing yourself to be kidnapped because you're attracted to your kidnapper is totally something I would do. She tap dances and likes hot cocoa and snuggling. I want to be her friend and drive in her shifter car with her.


ANDIE WALSH (Pretty in Pink)

"You know you're talking like that just because I'm going out with Blaine."

"Pretty in Pink" is by far my most favorite 80s movies. The fact that she doesn't choose Duckie still blows my mind everytime. People seem to think that "The Breakfast Club" or "Sixteen Candles" were Molly Ringwald's more memorable movie rolls. Well all I have to say is, fuck those movies. She works at a record store! Did you hear me? She's in high school and works at a record store! She's got the most gorgeous guy with the most wicked style after her (I'm talkin about Duckie, not Blaine). She makes her own clothes, lives on the wrong side of the tracks, drives a sweet car, and goes to clubs she's too young to get into. High school dream #147


VERONICA SAWYER (Heathers)

"Well, it's just like - they're people I work with, and our job is being popular and shit."

She has more one-liners than you can shake a stick at and uses a monocle to write in her journal! Enough said.

Mother's Day

I know it's not Mother's Day! (that's Linda Jansky up there)

You may have noticed that I listen to This American Life everyday. In fact, I've gone through just over 10 years of This American Life episodes and I wish there were 50 more ready for me now. Anyway, most of them are awesome. Some are weak. Some make me LOL and some cause me to tear up and even cry. Some do that in the same g'damn episode. This one did that. There are many better episodes, but for whatever reason this one pushed me to share it with you. It's an hour long, so I understand if you can't devote the time.

The Prologue is sad and thoughtful. I will be considering the book it was excerpted from for my book club pick.

If all you can listen to is part of it, listen to the first act because that was hilarious. I love the way Jonnifer (sp?) imitates the way her Mom woke her sister up and wish someone would wake me up in the same manner.

"Act One. She Said, She Said.

Producer Alex Blumberg conducts an investigation, perhaps the first ever, into this American subspecies: People who compulsively imitate their mother's voices in everyday conversation, well into adulthood. (18 minutes)"

The second act is heart-wrenching to hear, but rewarding at the same time.

"Act Two. Are You My Mommy?

When Jessica Robinson was sent to adult prison at the age of 14, the state did such a terrible job taking care of her that several women—an embezzler, a convicted murderer, and some thieves—stepped in to mother her. Alex Kotlowitz reports. Seven thousand young people like Jessica are now in adult prisons nationwide. (21 minutes)"

The third one was so very sweet. I want to record the Mother singing so I can fall asleep to it.

"Act Three. Mom Music.

Beau O'Reilly and his mother Winifred, who had 14 children, discuss her secret feelings about Johnny Cash and other matters on Mother's Day. (9 minutes)"

The episode is linked below. Free streaming!
This American Life

P.S. feel free to spam with mom pics!!! :) :) :) :) :) :)

From one gal to another

Over the last few months there was a small blip of time when I had a tiny bit of extra cash. I decided to take care of two things that were really bothering me:

1. my g'damn skin
2. my g'damn uncomfy and years old bra supply


Lemme tell ya, I finally got it right on both accounts. First, I started with my skin. I bought a combination of crap this girl at Sephora told me about. I thought, why not? No one else knows what they're talkin about re: my skin. I went all in and boy oh boy it really helped. I mean, there are some problem areas that don't go away (for me) without harmones (Kate's grandma says that so she doesn't have to say "whore" + "moans"). Basically, my chin area still provides a pimple or two at the most around lady time, but the severity is decreased and things seem to go away with less of a fight. The other part of it is I vowed not to pick my face anymore. I love picking my face :\. It's how I relieve stress :( Anyway, the combination of the two seem to really be helping my situation. I know at least one of these super expensive products is working because my skin looks and feels softer, clearer, smoother and fresher. No joke. While in that short amount of time, I bought up what I could in bulk on ebay so I wouldn't be without it when my cash flow turned from a stream into a mist. Without further ado:

1. Peter Thomas Roth AHA/BHA Acne Cleansing Gel ($45!!) It's really fuckin expensive, but so far it has lasted me 4ish months and I still have 1/3 left in the bottle. It eats the skin off my face and I couldn't be happier. I think this is the actual working element here.
















2. Peter Thomas Roth Fab Four ($35!!) This was also expensive, but I felt like I got a lot for my money (in Sephora dollars anyway). I JUST ran out of the moisturizer and powder and am nearly done with the two facial cleansers. The scrub is out of this world. It feels really gentle and when you're done you're smoooth. I started using the srub on my shoulders and upper back and even that seemed to get better.















So that's my thing there. I hate having to spend that kind of money on my stupid face, but after years and years and probably more money than I'd like to know, I've decided it's better to fork it over for something you know works. Plus, Sephora will take anything back.

Now, for the bra. I don't need to tell you how uncomfy bras are because you already know! They are the worst! I hate wearing them. My friend Sara told me that her Mom would pick her up from school and then immediately rip her bra off from under her shirt while driving and throw it in the back. My kinda lady. Anyway, I stumbled upon a Spanx bra that promised no underwire and to provide comfort without tossing on a sports bra (see the entire last year of my life). I went for it and it does not dissapoint! I wish it were a little smaller around ye ol' ribs, but it's pretty perfect. It offers a little bit of shape, which is a mystery because it is made from panty hose material going in different directions. There is ZERO over the bra skin/fat/muscle/what have you which makes me so happy because that is the most uncomfy feeling. I love it! Wearing it makes me feel like I'm on the sofa watching Oprah all day long. CONS: ugly, ugly color.

Check it:














Don't let that lady's boobs fool you, it doesn't provide THAT much shape. It comes pretty close though!

That's all for now. I'm not trying to get you to go out and buy anything, but I am a firm believer in word of mouth and sharing when something actually works in this good-for-nothin-advertising-run-market.

yous

the part of you i have
the part of you i hide
the parts of you i hold
the parts you left behind

call on me
i'll be there always



I like to listen to this album as loud as I think my neighbors can stand and move my body to the music and feel the beats in a serious and thoughtful way.

I just went through the blog and commented on everything I marked in my mind to revisit. I realize that I haven't been super present as of late and I'd like to apologize to you. I wanted to remind you that even when I'm quiet, I'm here and I'm your friend. I haven't been the best friend and I'm sorry. I don't feel great. Things are changing. It makes me sad. As I'm looking forward to moving and getting out of this city I simultaneously love and can't stand, I find myself trying to avoid thinking about anything here. I need the change to be quick and final, but it drags on. I feel like I can't think here. Like I can't go outside and run around. I'm like an anxious dog that should not be in an apartment on Geary Street.

I know I will look back on this time here with you as one of the best times of my entire life. Already, everything we've experienced together seems larger than life. Don't give up on me yet. I'm still here. I'm sorry I've been negative. It feels like months have gone by and I haven't noticed. I know it's not like we'll never talk to each other again, but you know, we are going in different directions. I love people more than I let on and then miss them greatly. In high school, I'd get depressed every year when summer let out because I knew I wouldn't see everyone over the summer. That's kind of what this feels like. I feel like there is something good for me that I'm in need of on the other side of this, but I have to leave my friends to get there. ugh.

Anyywayyy, sorry for the dramatics. It's one of those nights. I love you. Back to work for me.

Megan

"...the album I made... LYING DOWN"

I can't say enough how much I love this Liza Minnelli video. You all need to watch it so I can quote it without looking like I'm on pills.